Sleeping beauty

The power of dreams - are they real or are they the antithesis of what they represent (i.e. if you dream of money, will you lose money?)

I have had some interesting dreams this week - dreams that involve things I wonder if I have done as they seem so real, dreams about outcomes of things at work, dreams of friends, dreams of family, dreams of dogs - and each morning when I wake up I have that moment where my mind envelopes the dream and I wonder, just for a moment how real it was.

This morning I awoke with the feeling of someone behind me, I could feel the bend of their leg against mine, I could feel their breathe on my shoulder, yet my pillow alongside me was crisp and white and unslept upon - even though I could still feel the compression of another against me.

Wonder who came to visit.

Psychic Hotline

So I am skeptical - mainly because I understand psychology as a main manipulator of people and how to use that subtly and to my advantage and as such  I am always skeptical when I go to see a reader or a psychic.

But I do enjoy dipping my toe into the future and seeing what exactly is out there. So yesterday I went to see Val - and what is interesting is that I went to see her not because life is terrible, or I have a specific issue or anything as such, but rather because a friend mentioned she was going and I thought, why not.

So off we went yesterday morning to her lovely home just down the way from me. S went in first and was in for a good hour and a bit, and I watched some programme on channel 250 called "Dont Die Young" about female fertility and how your eggs dwindle from 700,000 when you are 13 to 1,000 by the time you hit menopause (um, scary!).

Then it was my turn.

She started with a great numerology analysis of my birthday and a discussion on my totem animals - what was very interesting was how accurate it was in terms of my female and male side, as well as my mind and heart totems - so on my active, feminine side I am a frog while my dark, male side is that of a hawk - and scarily, I can agree to most of her analysis.

Then we moved onto the reading - using Tarot to channel, she spoke about work and how I will be offered something else, but not to take it, that I am recognised at work, more money will come, all good things about work. She mentioned house moving - a new place, around Sept next year, which is awesome (a bit later than I would like, but there none the less) and what it would look like. She spoke of travel next year, which is good and right if I have anything to do with it and that my dad is ok - just focus on his balance and building strength. Mum is fine and Joe, the ghost we had in the old house is just a spirit that is bound to the land as his lady love was resident there and he never finished things with her, but he is real and a protector etc.

We spoke of Voodoo and I got some nice reading material and some movie recommendations (searching them on my kindle as we speak) and then she spoke of love. I gave her my two great loves birth dates B*1 and B*2 and she had quite a bit to say. On B*1 - she said that he will come in and out of my life like a tide, but our time is over - we had an opportunity to marry but that time is over. So that took care of that. Then we discussed M*2 - and her first words were that he is a part of me, we have been together before, he is very passionate and powerful but we are not good for each other. Um, yes - I nearly died from a broken heart when we ended it - literally - and I know in myself that I can never go there again, no matter how much I wish I could.

So it was interesting.

But then something very interesting happened. Before I went to her, I set my intent that I would need a sign that she is really channeling, something that will only make sense to me, something that I would recognise as a sign that I am getting some direction, some insight, some idea of the possibilities of my future.

So we naturally discussed future love. And she described a nice man (not gonna go into detail here, I would like to let the specifics go - and not fixate on them) and she spoke of his work and his life and his world. And then she said " And his name is probably Alex or has Alex as part of it"

Well, I nearly fell off the chair.

Literally.

And the reason is, that for ages now, whenever I imagine my life with my soulmate, my lover, my passion, I have, for some reason, called him Alex. I have no reason for that - I just have thought of he who I am destined to be with to be called Alex. I like the name because its strong, and because if I imagined it I didnt think of anyone I know (like a friend, or a friends husband or an ex or something). I chose the name carefully one day a few years back and I often speak to "him" when I am alone, and call out to him when I am desperate and wondering when we will ever meet.

So to hear her say that was overwhelming. I cant really say more than that, it was just alot to process. That he is distinctly a possibility, real, alive.

It was quite something. And in a wierd way - profound. And very honourable of those above us to let me know, that maybe, just maybe my prayers are not being ignored.

Blessings,
Kat

45 Life Lessons

Here are 45 lessons from a life well lived - on the occasion of her 90th Birthday, Regina Blett wrote these:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come...

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."

I love that one.. 44 - yield... it makes good sense and resonates with me as to when the hussle and bussle are all around us sometimes is necessary to just B R E A T H E

Perspective

So today was indeed an interesting day... I had a gorgeous conversation with a lady at work, who I am becoming quite friendly with - a soulful connection which is just wonderful to see birthing and she shared with me such a great perspective - that we shouldnt let the pursuit of perfection stop us from doing things - and how often do I live my life like that - saying to myself that I wont start dating again until I loose 10kgs, that I wont buy myself something until I have saved R 50,000.00, that I wont go on holiday to Italy unless I have someone to go with me etc.

Yes, there is something to be said for delayed gratification, but how often do we just exist - sitting in a place of pause - because we are not perfect, we havent put everything in place to get it all done perfectly but that doesnt mean that we cant enjoy life - that we cant take the bull by the horns and live.

An old philosophy question focuses on a glass that is 50% water and 50% air and asks if the person looking at the glass see's a glass half full or a glass half empty.

Its not so much the answer to that question that is important - a better question is what do you do with the contents of that glass.